Love at the Well

Have you ever had someone do something for you or give you something that was so costly; a gift you know was weeks and months worth of effort and dedication to get it specifically for you? This gift is an extravagant act of love, selflessness and consideration that impacts your heart so much, you can actually feel it healing you from all the past moments where you were someone who someone just settled on. The moments of disappointment. Maybe it was Christmas morning, or your birthday in a year when finances were hard and you maybe only got a card. It doesn’t matter what age you are when this happens, it leaves a mark just the same. Then…EPOCH GIVING! A gesture that radically undoes your heart and opens you to possibilities! Now that is some gift I just described, right?

There has to be some level of care, attention to detail to get a gift that can alter your life. Someone had to have painstakingly observed your likes, dislikes and taken time to pursue the deeper things of your heart to get such a gift. I have to be honest, I am a gift card person. I am not really into details such as these. Truly, I can say aside from my salvation, there is one gift that altered my life in such a way that I will never forget. Please don’t get me wrong, there have been many gifts from this person, but the details of this gift are so special to me.

My mom had offered to pay for a trip for her and I to go to Hawaii. I told my mom to give me some time to think about it and I would get back to her. I had never been to Hawaii, and up until that point I had not desired to go. I would have gone to accompany my mom who was patiently enduring years of issues with my dad. I would have gone just to honor her, plus it was going to be my birthday. However, I had been spending much of my time in Pasadena in prayer and worship for hours. I was pursuing intimacy with God and He was showing up in the sweetest of ways, tenderly, yet steadfastly healing my heart.

At this point, I was possibly spending a full workday in the prayer room and the night shift, for 4-5 days a week. It was pure bliss. I would not trade anything for the sweet moments of intimacy I was having with my Abba, Jesus and Holy Spirit. I had asked my mom to give me a week to respond, and that time was up. It was time to let my mom know my decision. I told my mom that I couldn’t leave because I was too invested in my time with the Lord. Sure, you may say that I could have had alone time with God on the big island of Hawaii, LOL, but that was not the same place that I had been cultivating. It wasn’t the same place where I was planted, and it was not the same place where We were meeting in such sweet moments of intimacy. I was planted in the house of God, flourishing at His courts and I could not leave. Gratefully, my mom understood. That day I went to sleep and had a dream. I saw myself sitting at a piano, playing and worshiping. It was such a powerful moment of pouring out my heart on the piano in prophetic song, love songs to God. 

2 Samuel 23:15-17

And David had a craving and said, “Oh that someone would give me water to drink from the well of Bethlehem, which is by the gate!” So, the three mighty men broke through the camp of the Philistines, and drew water from the well of Bethlehem by the gate, and carried and brought it to David. But he would not drink it, but poured it out [in worship] to the Lord. And he said, “Far be it from me, O Lord, that I should drink this. [Is it not the same as] the blood of the men who went at the risk of their lives?” So he would not drink it. These things the three mighty men did.

Through these verses let’s consider this month’s word study, Well. What was it about this well that  David longed to drink from? Was it a better quality of water? Did it have more nutrients? In the simplest of terms, this well represented “home” to David. He wanted to come home. He longed to be in a place that was special, had value and gave him a sense of belonging. The cry of his heart to drink from this well, shows the desperation to be at rest from the battles and betrayals that were happening all around him. Three of his closest companions, three men who were battle-worn and faithful to David, heard the longing of their king and risked their lives to cross the battle lines to bring him a drink from this cherished well.

Much in the same manner, I was desperate for Home. The presence that I had been cultivating with Father, Jesus and Holy Spirit was the most near to my Heavenly Home that I had felt after being battle-worn and tired, after deep grief, loss, and betrayal. I wanted to drink my fill from the Well that would never run dry. The only Well that could satisfy this longing, disquieted soul of mine. I had planted myself and my roots were going deep. I had dug myself a spiritual well of His presence and I did want to jeopardize this beautiful process. It was so sweet how God would encounter me, correct me and reveal the truth to me…Oh the glory of the Well, Spring of Life. Oh, my soul was satisfied only in that place, with Him and I would not be moved. 

After the dream, I went to the house of prayer, and I felt like Elisha saying “Where is this God of Elijah” (2 Kings 2:14) as I struck the piano! There was an event in LA happening concurrently, all the guitars had been taken there, so the piano was available. I went to the practice room, sat down and began to find my fingers freely moving across the piano, forming chords that I was able to follow and sing along to! I broke down in tears. When it was time for my two-hour set from 4 am-6 am, I wept as I played the piano singing love songs to my King. When I was done, I heard the Father’s voice tell me, “You chose My Son, I give you a gift.” I knew that this was directly related to me choosing to stay and not go to Hawaii. Father, Jesus and Holy Spirit were as invested in my time with Them and They gave me a beautiful gift from Their heart. Amazing Love. 

Life Application:

It is never in vain to go hard into your pursuit of God. If the Lord is summoning you, calling you to draw away with Him, jump into that deep well and go as deep as you can, it is so worth it! He is so worth it! The greatest gift you are going to get is God Himself! You are going to find yourself at HOME in Father, Jesus and Holy Ghost. 

Let’s get real. If you have read any of my blogs, you already know I have to be transparent. It is my gift from God to share what I learned in the midst of this beautiful story so that the reader will glean a fresh revelation about what not to do. A few weeks after receiving this beautiful gift of playing the piano, on a particular day, I was tired; to be more specific, I was tired of a specific person. I was having unkind thoughts about this person who was running me ragged as I was trying to offer some semblance of leadership within a community group, we were all living in. I was being tested and tried. This person was trying me. At one point, I gossiped about this person to another person in our community. I remember feeling so much condemnation that the thought entered my mind “I wonder if I sit down to play piano, would I still be able to play?” Ponder this question a little bit. Was what I was thinking correct? 

Romans 11:29

For the gifts and the calling of God are irrevocable [for He does not withdraw what He has given, nor does He change His mind about those to whom He gives His grace or to whom He sends His call].

I was still getting to know God’s ways. After repenting, I sat down at the piano and played weeping at how good God was to me. His word in the King James Version of Romans 11:29 says that “His gifts are without repentance.” TRUTH: The giftings and callings of God in your life are being wasted if you are not putting them into practice. Don't let the enemy, or your own opinion, talk you out of using them. Do not believe the lie any further. Come Home to Abba and cultivate that deep well of intimacy with Him once more. 

Action Steps:

Check out our website and sign up for a course or event. Trumpets of Tirzah offers classes that are a newly accredited through The Academy at Trumpets of Tirzah. The course is not new, however, you will now receive a certificate in Transformational Leadership. This program is 7 months of immersive community with exceptional leadership, teachers and accountability to foster your growth in Jesus. 

One of the things we are taught in this course is how to enhance and deepen our meaning of Scripture, we will refer to the Greek or Hebrew definitions of words. This enables us to obtain a better understanding of the Scriptures.

Strongs Greek: 2222: zōḗ – life (physical and spiritual).  All life (2222 /zōḗ), throughout the universe, is derived – i.e. it always (only) comes from and is sustained by God's self-existent life. The Lord intimately shares His gift of life with people, creating each in His image which gives all the capacity to know His eternal life.

Let’s Pray: 

Father, I want to be a deep deep well of Your presence. I want Your glory flowing out of me to those all around me. Plant me and let me flourish in Your presence as You become in me a Wellspring of Life. Let me be equipped with the capacity to contain Your glory and Your Zoe, the God-kind. Life. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.